Tuesday, 2 September 2008

Where'd That Rug Go?

I haven't said much for a few days because I've been having something of a rough week and feel like I'm just trying to stay afloat. Nothing too terrible, as far as terrible things go, but enough to make me feel like I've had the rug pulled out from under me and I'm busy trying to get my footing again.

For the past three years I've been babysitting in my home to help bring in the extra income we need to support the family. I didn't make much, but it was enough. The number of kids I tend was going to decrease this year as several of them are starting grade one and one is going to kindergarten. Still, it left me with enough and I could add to those numbers from there.

Meanwhile, I am always on the lookout for something else to replace the babysitting. It has never been my choice of careers but I haven't been able to find anything else. Options are limited in the small town we live in and the cost of gas makes finding a part-time job in the city not very feasible. There is also my pitiful lack of formal education, which leaves me not qualified for very many things.

Last Wednesday, the mom of two of the kids I watch told me she wouldn't need me anymore. There went that rug. Without those two kids, I'm left with one little boy who is only here ten hours a week and no one on my waiting list. Anyway, the kids started school today, so I have lots of time on my hands to figure out what to do next. As they go back to school and no little children arrive at my door in the mornings, I need to remember what to do in a quiet, kid-free house. There's lots of time to write, and that's a good thing. Too bad it doesn't pay the bills. (I still believe it will happen someday.)

I know things will work out somehow, but with the price of groceries constantly on the rise, I hope we figure it out sooner than later. These last few days I have spent so much time trying to figure out what my skills are and how to present them to people without the little piece of paper telling them how smart I am, that my head hurts. Hopefully, my own girls will learn from their mother and get the good education I wasn't able to.


Autumn Ables said...

Or look at it as one door has closed and a window will open?

It seems to me that whenever someone looses a job {happened to us a couple different times as well as MANY friends} that something greater comes of it. And in the here and now it's difficult to see how it will all work out.

Maybe you need more free time to write and get published in order to bring in that income? Who knows- only the Lord anyway.

I pray something will come your way and this rug that has been pulled from you will only be a small tapestry of a giant quilt made just for your family. :)

Kimberly said...

I hope autumn ables is right and that this is opportunity knocking for you. I hope you're inspired with clarity and vision to know how best to spend your extra time.

And I hope multi-level marketing scheme people don't start harrassing you. ~hugs~

Josi said...

I'm so sorry, Steph, I hate it when life takes a detour we're not ready for yet. Don't discount the chance that this is a way for a new opportunity to make itself known. Have you thought about writing articles? Best of luck.

Don said...

I have to agree - this sounds like an opportunity getting ready to appear.

But it's dang scary seeing only the dark cloud, and knowing just what can happen before the silver lining finally shows up.

Hang in there!

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